I called James pediatrician that night and left a message. In the message, I told them why I wanted to see the doctor and if possible, asap. I was thinking that this appointment would not happen for a few weeks as it is so hard to get an appointment. To my surprise, they called me the next day and we go an appointment the in two days.
I had an appointment at Sick Kids Hospital then next week at the Teen Clinic already scheduled. The process was in motion or what I thought the process was.
It was so easy leaving a message but I was wondering how I would be at the appointments.
I cried a lot that night. It wasn’t because I was upset but overwhelmed. I was trying to picture what life would be like for him. I knew there would be challenges and I couldn’t always be there to protect him. I just wanted him to be safe. I want both of my sons to be safe.